Thy History
My history is dead, your history has disappeared from you fucking eyes. You cannot see and you cannot tell what has happened and what will happend. You're lost in this world unable to see, blind as a bat you wonder this planet lonely and stupid. And no one is there to guide you. Not your God you praise night and day, nor your savior who laughs at you behind you back as you stay piteous and weakend by your stupid beliefs...

Chapter One: The Seeming Possiblities of Pathways.




It seems to me that in some time now I've seen so many things that have kept some kind of sense about itself. But in the time of this expansion of mine, I learn to notice that everything changes with the time that it takes. Yet, I really don't see the entire point of the expanding change that does occur, but it does help people to understand better what there is. Now, you see me as some kind of fool writing, do you not? Of course you do, only a fool would waste his or her's time typing such foolish things such as I do. But, if it is ok with you, I shall continue on my way of my story.

See, if there is some kind of true path, what is it? I've seen to noticed that everyone has a different path to choose from. There is no just one path, there are several to see on the phsyical plane and the in the mind as well. You see, one path would be too narrow and would cause too many problems in the world today. If you focus on one path, there is no other choice but that one path to follow. You have to be strong willed to follow that ground. But, if there are many paths, then everyone truely has a chance instead of being cut off quickly. Now, to be forced to know there is only one path to mention and follow, is to say you're wrong in what you've always thought. For those who think differently are not astraying from the path, but are searching for answers why there is only one when several were before it and were put in play before this one that has been brought to believe the only true one. Yet, everyone thinks their own path is the right one and true. And yet, they're all connected in some way, are they not? I believe so, that's why I argue the fact that there is no one true path. Because if everything is connect in one way or another, why is not that path over there true as the other one? They all lead to one place do they not? and yet the others must be wrong and your's right? But, as one who claims to see it all and think he know's everything that this is the true path, there is a tendency to show a sign or narrow-mindedness and non-compassionate truth to his or her's way of life. If everything seems to follow one certain scriptrue, why are their billions of different types of religions that are all connected than called false by one certain one (which will remain nameless) and then it becomes the only true one around? I fail to see the reasoning in it at all. I fail to really comprehend the idea of it all that seems to put theirs above all. It's as if it was a social class. That everything is built into a governmental type of way to live and to be controlled by consequences and evironments. See that is what I see around now a days in this world. That everything has a governmental touch into it that it has this huge difficulty of accepting each other forcing upon more and more anger to the world. Yet, I see no reason for it, do you? I'm sure you wil figure out some way to argue, of course, but do you understand where I am coming from? I mean, if I can see somewhat where you are coming from, can you not see mine. I guess it really depends if your mind can truely see it all before you. But to come from some certain idea, what about the idea of being free to know what you want and not be told that you're wrong in what you believe and that the other is right? It is hard to be accepted now a days due to religion, race, and forms of personality and several other things. Preach peace, yet you show none...you preach equality, yet your show none. What does that show to you? It shows that people's beliefs are never lived up to...NEVER. It comes to show that the world is saying to you that what you want and what you need won't mean shit to me and that you're life is pointless and I couldn't care less for your pathetic existence in this world. That's what it says, that's what it shows me. It is all the matter of actually standing strong with what you believe rather than falling upon this and becoming contradictory to your beliefs and still believe them. But, I don't say that to everyone and leave myself out, no of course not. That would be plain stupidity to say that all of you do this and I don't. No, when i say everyone, I include myself. There are times I don't live up to what I say and believe. Not everyone does, but what I do stand up to most of the time is basically my word to my friends. I won't bail on them, I won't turn my back on them. Yes, I may get cruel but I won't leave them standing there. Not purposely...no where near purposely. I love them like I love my books and writing and music...they are close to my heart even if they don't see it that way. They are very well my gift. And that concludes this chapter.




Chapter Two:Life as we know it changes.

Now, that life we see is only but a fragment of what is yet to truely come after our death and we pass onto whatever life that may come. There might not be one, there might be one. Who truely knows in the first place? Who really can say that they've been to Heaven or Hell and back and can tell a 400 pages story about all the great things they saw and believed with their own eyes and never really thought it was true. People have written for centuries on what possibly could be there in those places. And yet, none of them truely know if it is all true or myth. But, they had faith in it to say the most, unlike alot of people who have no faith (trust) and no hope left in their own lives they live day to day. Now, we kind of got this thing where we find some kind of sense to know that there is a life after death or maybe some kind of life during life. If you can't live life while you know you're alive, then you're basically just wasting your mind that can expand from everything that will help you come to a sense of knowledge and reasonable facts. You see the entire expansion of your world, do you not? Everything expands in some form or another, it isn't that hard to noticed. Everything as some sort of evolution if you want to put it in those terms. You're life is evolving along with the environment around you and your own body,mind, ect. But, do you choose to see that evolution? or do you wish to follow your scripture and just kind of say, "No, it's not an evolution, it's just a change in patterns." My fellow, evolution is a change, evolution is a thing that changes in patterns. Was it not that if we evolved from monkeys we changed to something else? And I believe we're evolving every day. Everyone and everything. I do believe that there will be a new evolution sooner or later rather you think so or not. We all have our opinions and our beliefs and ideas but, If you don't see the phsyical and the mental and the worldy evolution then you are blind, to me anyway. Is not growth a form of evolution as well, you are changing, are you not? You have some kind of pattern changing inside of you every second. There are evolutionary advances in you and in techonology as you very well know. But, I can't leave it unsaid that, sometimes evolutions have defects, problems, shortages. Like someone saying to you, "Well, we have a problem with this computer, it's super fast but it has thing where because it's so fast it lags sometimes ", and it's true, sometimes the faster things go, the more problems it gets. Evolution takes time, lots of time, it has to be percise otherwise there will be major defects in the building process to actually help throw you over that hump where you're perfect. Yes, there where always be defects though in every kind of process that shows up in the world as we see it. The life you live will change, but I think changes are good in the world we live in. If there weren't any changes, where would we be now? Still a bunch of Neanderthals living in caves prancing around like apes? That's where I would see us. That's where alot of people would expect. But possibly before then, probaly still trying to evolve our microscopic friends in the waters so we can actually become possible. There is always some kind problem in everything that comes along and seizes our eyes and our attention to try and understand what it is or where it has come from. Yet, it never seems to fail me that, we always have some kind of problem within our own minds. People can read each other's feelings meaning, our minds are seriously connected in one way or another, there could be your proof of a real God. That we are God, that we are all connected and if that connection breaks, we are lost and until we truely find a way to connect again, our life will continue.

"Think For Yourself, Question Authority"---Timothy Leary

Throughout human history as our species have faced this frightening, terrorzing, fact that we do not know who we are or where we are going in this ocean of chaos. It has been the authorities, the political, the religious, the education authorities who have attempted to comfort us by giving us order, rule, regulations, informing, forming in our mind's their view of reality. To think for yourself you must question authority and learn how to put yourself in a state of vulnerable, open-mindednes, chaotic, confused, vulnerability to inform yourself...Think for yourself, Question Authority.



Chapter 3: Think For Yourself, Question Authority

Think for yourself, question authority, one of my mottos I've taken away from the late Timothy Leary. I agree with that it says and what it stands for, I don't believe in authority yet, I must tolerate it for my own saftey of my freedom not to be taken away from others who disagree with whatever I say and do and believe. Now, of course everyone follows it, but what does it all really mean to me? The want of power by the people who control it all and seem to feel that makes them proud to be above people. People have a way of thinking that orders, rules, regulations comfort the society we live in today when really, it makes people annoyed that they can't freely do what they want. I can understand the rules against things as mudering and stealing but, not the rules that disable people to walk the streets and kind of do and say and be who they are. If you're a druggie you should be able to walk the streets doing your drugs because you have that freedom as a individual to kill yourself like that. If people will not really care for their own ways, why should you take away their rights to do what they want and be free to do it without your ways of thinking and making their reality something else instead of what they want? Rules have been created to form in the mind people's views of reality instead of the reality you choose you want. What kind of freedom is it when you are forced to see their way of life instead of your own way of life that you live and they do not? You know what's good for you, not other people's beliefs and ideas to change that reality you put inplace in your mind. If only that idea could be seen. Now, you might think me saying this is me wanting power, it isn't wanting power over anyone at all my dear reader, it is trying to make people see my view of life, reality, ect. and maybe inspire people to think this way of some sort anyway. To have an influence over some people's thoughts to make them build their own way of life instead of letting others do it for them as because it is their life, not someone elses. But, of course, it cannot go without saying that there needs to be some kind of rule to keep a form of order as long as it doesn't cut people off from keeping their own view of reality and truth in their eyes. It seems to me that if you cut people away from the reality they choose to see than you're saying that you're reality is the only right one, follow me and lets spend an entire lifetime worshiping some kind of idol. Yet, there is some kind of idea that religion and government and rules are all the same thing in a way of connection of it's basic ideas of rules and order and regulations. Only on the plain of seeing this truely down to the more deeper ends of what is said throughout everything each of them stand for and symbolizes in my eyes could possibly influence people to know the depths of how to look through. Though, i will not teach you methods of finding that out and I will not show you instantly, you must figure out that way yourself because like I said, I'm not going to tell you what to do, I want know power over your own mind but, I do want you to figure things out for yourself instead of others teaching them to you. But, can we not see eye and eye on some of the things I argue about constantly? Do you not understand them? or just not choose to listen? Ah, well, it depends on the individual, the situation, and the consequences of trying to listen, I suppose. But, as this chapter closes off, I ask you to do one thing for the next, pay attention and keep all that you've read in mind.

Chapter Four: Yet, Are We Alive If We Are Controlled?

This chapter basically runs along together with the last one, if seen that way. And it is a simple question, are we a live if we are controlled? My answer is no, mainly because what it says is if we are controlled then we don't even own our own LIVES! Yes, that's what control does to a human mind, it tricks it into thinking you're alive yet you are controlled and you don't live the life that you should be living at this exact moment if you do let those things seem to guide you instead of you guiding yourself along the on way you are suppose to be running. Now, if there is some kind of contradiction to this, it must be said that it is control that keeps people away from and several other things. Control is merely just authority and power over one's mind to see their view of reality to make them realize something that doesn't necessarly run along their lives. Yet, we tolerate this, we must otherwise we get thrown into a world of chaos and fury which no one wants that, no, no one would dare to live in chaos. Why? because they're scared of it all, the environment, the consequences, everything about chaos seems to frighten them into submission of letting others run you life. Which basically says you are willing to let them rule over you because you're scared of what may come. Because survival is your only true friend, is it not? We all must survive so we can do something more than just eat, sleep, wake up, work, eat, and sleep again. But, that is life in a general statement is it not? We all want to eat, sleep, wake up, work for our money, eat some more, and go back to bed so we can rest for the next days struggles. Of course, everyone loves this in some sort of manner, besides the ones who are in school and are too young to get jobs so it does seem to rule that out. But really, what are child labor rules? I can understand opressing them to work, but if the child chooses to work then let them! Let them work all they want as long as the employers do not opress them in anyway otherwise, "Authority" can come and do what it may do to erase that yet leave the kid scarred. I understand oh quite so clearly, you may think me wrong, but I can understand more than some believe me to understand at any point in my process of thinking and theorizing on every single part of the world's life. See, I'm always contradictary to what you see me as and what you think I really am, someone looking for money or control over one's mind to think the way you are which would go against your beliefs and make you a lying sack of shit, yet, like I said before, I'm not searching for control of power over anyone, I merely one to inspire people to think in a way that can influence them to see some of my ideas and feel inspired to build upon them and make them totally different or argue those ideas I have places upon your reading eyes my fair judgmental little cupcake. My own style of writing, my own style of ideas, my own style of thinking up news ways of getting my point across to anyone that reads this. Others hate trying to show their opinions out like I do, so abroad and wide but, if we do not express our opinion and then act upon why we think that way, then we really are letting people know the true way of our minds, are we not? Yet, most people favor simplicity over complexity, me , well, I'm quite the opposite, if it's more complex, the more challenging it is for my readers and yet, more informative than simplicity is. And as it is question at the beginning, I like you to constantly ask yourself through everything in some form, "Am I alive if I let others control me," and continue to "Think For Yourself and Question Authority"


Chapter Five: Is it Me? or is it just Life Today?

Simple enough, is it not? But, really, is it me that Im always doomed to feel a sense of depression, or is it just life that seems to drag that issue firmly against me everytime I walk the streets of the cities I live in and wonder why must I be doomed to af ate wrought with depression and frustration when I have done nothing to deserve it in anyway! Yet, I constantly hear these Christians taking about how God can save you and make you be happy forever and can bring so much if only, IF ONLY I bow down to HIM and render MY LIFE to his greatness so he can see me to be his humble servant and he can use me for his liking. How pointless is that? To give up your life you have been given to regulate yourself for him because he seems to know what's best for you. But, I find it much more idiotic to say that he wants to use me...yet it is true, he does want to use me because he can't do his own work himself. He uses deceiving humans to deceive all of us to bow down to him. But, what am I saying? I don't even believe in such a god so why should I be speaking about it? Because I feel the need to let people know why I feel God is false and hypocritical and a liar. For one, he's false because he won't do his own work himself meaning that we, the humans, must do it for him because he can't show us his power yet he will frighten us by telling us there's punishment awaiting us if we do not choose to worship him. For two, he's hypocritical because it is not what it seems, it is a facade of power to control all of you who choose to believe in it to make you think it does some good when reality it is a matter of psychological matters NOT religious and faith ordeals. But, people don't choose to look deeper, they just read the surface and instantly believe it all because it tells them right there apparently. And God is a liar because he doesn't live up to all that he preaches and says and supposedly does. He lies, cheats, and steals from people. He lies by telling them there's this great things that you can have if you bow and worship, he cheats people out of their lives by giving their orders, rules, and regulations to their lives so they can't live it to their fullest, and he steals people's lives and takes it for his own so he can be proud that he has power over human fools who worship him. Life is not to be live by regulations given to you by someone you read about and then choose to worship because you think it's all true because you're too stupid to think for youself. Wake up and notice how everything you think ou believe in is not happening! Scientific evidence has been sealed off from public because of religion because they believe that religion will save the people and once they find out they're wrong it's ok because they chose it and because they chose it they will understand. No they won't understand, because all that they once thought they knew and believed are crumbled into dust and nothing is left so they are either forced to keep worshiping, they are forced to become violent, or they are forced to fall into a deep depression and die. And as most chapters now end in this essay or whatever people may call it, "THINK FOR YOURSELF, QUESTION AUTHORITY."



Chapter Six: The Big Bang Theory True? o False.

Well, just now I have found a small little article about Cosmology which is the name given to the study of the universe and how it was conceived. It has been brought to my notice that scientists have found clear evidence that the Big Bang Theory is the correct explanation for the beginning of the universe. See, one of the experiments on a thing called the Cosmic Background Explorer or simply COBE, accuartely measured the spectrum of the background radiation from 1989 to 1993. COBE measured radiation from the sky, then subtracted known sources of radiation from its measurements to reveal the background radiation. The measured background radiation fits the radiation predicted by the big bang theory so accurately that scientists, like i said, consider it conclusive evidence that the big bang is the correct explanation of the beginning of the universe (Find more at http://demonolatry.cjb.net go to Universe and if they sue me I guess they have the right to since I did steal it from their site like much more will come from there. But I'm only trying to get the info across.] Now, the question that is asked most frequently is "Well, who created the Big Bang?" Well, to my info. yet I have no clue, the question shouldn't be "Who" but "What". Was it this imaginary God everyone praises that created the entire universe and all the theories, or was it just the matter of chemical reactions that set forth the evolutions and what not. See, to me is that all the theories about the big band and evolution are true. I do believe there was a gigantic explosion or big bang that created all of matter we know of today, I do believe in evolution, that we were evolved from apes or monkeys because they are what seem to be the other animals that are almost exactly like us. How can no one keep an open mind for the evolutionary theory? because they can't accept the fact that we were once these apes that looked and thought stupidly and that they believe we are these great masters of the world yet we bow down to some being that is supposedly all around us watching us jack off and what not. But like I said, I can't really explain this all to you so you must refer to my source at that site given earlier. See, what I realize, everyone needs something to grasp on otherwise it all comes down. If you have nothing to clutch, then it all comes down in a matter of seconds and well, instantly you fall with it and become weakend by the thought that it's all gone, what now, what will I survive on, alot of people reach toward religion as a crutch. Yes, because they grow into it, they stay in it and live the regulations and rules of that religion because they're unable to do it themselves. To me, that's what religion is, a clutch for the weak and down-trotted, a so called hero possibly if it may be used. The hero for the ones who have nothing to turn to but to study religion and become one with it, yet, I clutch onto what I have now, I don't need religion, I don't need a God, I don't need rules and regulations to run my life. I live it the way I wish to live it, not what others think and how I should live it, not what "GOD" wants me to do with my life. I basically really don't care about all the religion meanings about life or anything that connects together with entire theory of God's and what not. Yet, once again, I must tolerate it, but don't we all have to tolerate others anyway? Is it not the view of reality we must follow all the time, we have to tolerate others to find out different ideas upon everything thought up. I know millions out there think I'm wrong, and yet I know there are few that might think me right... Who knows? I can't really go around the world instantly asking their opinions about what I say, do, and act. If I had that kind of power, I'd figure myself to be some kind of God, don't you think? But, maybe it's all just, bullshit? Maybe everything people believe is bullshit, maybe their's no purpose in believing things that we see and are told. Because really, what is it in the end? Wanna know? Exactly NOTHING. That's what it is, nothing, because, once we're all dead and the universe has collapsed, what is left? nothing but a new birth of a universe. Think about that one thought, we complain about everything right now, bitch and moan about war and politics and beliefs and yet, still, in the end it doesn't even matter anymore. Because we will all be gone, we will all be somewhere else. So, everything we work for, and look for, see, and do, and believe, will end in nothing...Weird thing to believe but, it's true...It's frightening is it not? To know that everything we've ever done will end in nothing? Religion just gives people to clutch onto so they can know there is something left after death when in the reality of it all...there will be absolutely nothing left in the cosmos...Everything will be gone...Frightening yes, but true in all aspects of the one's mind who thinks this up.


Chapter Seven: Is there anything left?

Is there anything left? Well, right now I guess the answer is Yes for we do have alot left over from thousands of things that have been built and brought up and everything else that has basically come upon this Earth...well, almost anyway in some sort of manner. But, the question is merely a general question actually, so, people would get somewhat confused, I would be lead to believe, because they just do not search deeper into it's meaning or possibly come up with the possibilities of the question instead, they just sweep over the question and take it in general so they basically could say anything that comes to mind, could they not? But, what I am actually referring to is, is there anything left after death? Certainly, none of us truely know, we all have our own ideas and own beliefs to circle around to figure that one out. Some believe it's Heaven on Hell and some believe in that there is only a dark and lonely grave left for us in the end of our lives. But, can you really make certain that that is true at any risk of what it might mean to your entire meaning of life that you live day to day thinking you're safe in this world of your own imagination that you have created since you were a infant playing in the sink while getting bathed by you're mother? No, you can't, because you have never gotten information from someone you know the depths of life after death. Why? because basically, you cannot resurrect people from the dead, unless you're some useless Christian thinking Jesus Christ was, then I guess you could, but you'd have to be some ignorant moron to think that without searching through the entire information behind the entire subject...People read among the surfaces, they don't look deeper into what is said. They basically don't think for themselves when they do so... it's called being controlled as mentioned in other chapters. Now ask yourself, why would they let their mind be taken over by such non-sense without even considering what they're doing by following the lines that people want them to do? Because they are powerless to will themselves from doing so. They have no mind of their own really, they follow the general idea that has been handed down to them because the person who did it wants them be this and that because they can't stand watching people doing what they want freely because of the idiotic things that have done in their pointless lives. See, as I say, is there anything left? And as explained we do not know...why do you think so many turn to religion? So they can be secure to know that this is where they are going but yet, if they're disappointed to find out that it is wrong, they lose all hope and they become depressed mindless fools who do nothing but mope around and drown themselves. See, that's a reason why people need their religion, to be secure...they can't face the truth that could possibly be there without their beliefs. And in my eyes, when the end comes, there is nothing left...as I've said before, it maybe depressing, it maybe traumatizing, but I live with it...I live my life the way I want while I am, even though it will not mean a thing in the end, and then, I can die...easy enough for me, good enough for me. I just don't care...I'm apathetic toward after life possibilities for me...It's just that it's meaningless to me to even want to care. Because I know what I know and I think I'm right in what I say even though billions might think otherwise.


Chapter Eight: The Systmatic Control Over Kid's Minds and Life.


Well, now I have come upon the eighth chapter of my book or, whatever you may call this I write now. I recently finished reading The Prince by Niccolo Machavelli and it came upon me now to write, once again, about a political, controlliing, deceiving plan that has been put in spin since the day I was born and maybe many others now. Now, this isn't political but, in some sort it is because, it does deal with governments and such controlling or better yet, deceiving people. Now, to come to some spark to start, I say this, that everything has a since where things are put in systematically do one thing or the other, that's what I have learned suddenly, well, so I think I did suddenly learn. Everything has a systematic way of being done sometimes, that includes all things no matter what it is and what it may be. Now, I do believe that children's mind are systematically controlled by T.V., parents, and all forms of government, rather it be school government or the national government, they all have some way of controlling and deceiving kids. Now, if I say so myself, and to be completely honest, yes I have been control by all such things and yet I am from time to time. It isn't really easy to escape the problem like you would think and my opinions, of course, have no affect on the matter at hand except in this book. But, in reality, my opinions really does not mean much to anyone who shall read this or who already has because we all must tolerate rules, regulations, order, and the governmental power that has been placed upon us, there really isn't anyway of not because believe, if there was, I'd probably follow straight into that part instead of the one I am on now. Because I have come to the realization that kid's are controlled by everything. They are shown this way and this way, then they are told to do this and to do that instead of being able to think for themselves. I always preach think for yourself, question authority because i stand by it very strongly. To me, it's one of the best sayings in the world right now thanks to a man named Timothy Leary and I believe what he said in it is true, very true. And because of that, I constantly repeat myself...but kid's do not really see the power of deception and why? because either no one lets them no or they just refuse to look beyond that surface. Not many people look beyond the surface as I have said before, because either they don't wish to see or they are forced not to see. They are forced to be blind to people who want to tell them how it is and the truth and yet they are todl we're trying to deceive them. Well, it really isn't true at any rate, there is no fact in that, it's all in the matter of opinion. It isn't trying to deceive, it's more the way of trying to let people know how we feel and get our points across and at some rate maybe inspire other people to do so as well instead of censoring themselves. But, as I've said before, everything is a matter of psychology, it's all placed in the mind, not truth or sort, but the way the mind perceives the surroundings. Now, whoever may read this, you may dislike what I have said throughout the entire thing, I understand how it would be, I have said many things against what people have done, said, and believed but, it cannot go without saying that it is what I think so. I never said you had to believe or even understand, I only wish that you will not get angry at things.
But, still, I would understand if you do. Now, back onto the subject at hand before I got carried off. Everything is a matter of psychological motives and as well mental health reasons, you deceieve at the beginning and let them come into it themselves, but if you come toward me to tell me I'm wrong, cold, bitter, and the deceiever, then it is your opinion because it is not fact at any rate! Because simply, as stated before, I'm not trying to do anything deceiving, only trying to make people see my way. Learn both sides of the fight and then see who has the better answers to what has been said and done instead of being closed-minded and NOT paying attention to that otherside. But sometimes, I do get caught off guard doing that, being closed-minded, I must admit because then it would seem as if I'm this perfect person who lets everyone in and all that but no, I have admitted that I can be closed-minded and many other things but, at least I am honest about what I do. But, I am saying, I hate the deception the governments do to keep everyone at comfort, I hate the religious deception that gives people hope there is something better than life on earth, and I dislike the school government for telling kids this and that about life, we are born with the same rights as everyone else, we have the freedom of speech, you may not like that but, it is OUR right at the citizens of AMERICA that we are equal and we must abide by the SAME CONSTITUTION no matter what age. It doesn't matter if you're 6 or 17, you have that freedom to say what you will and all these fools who say "No, you're a minor so you don't have those rights you arrogant little child," must be told that. We are all free to say and do what we want but still, democracy isn't true freedom, we are still cages but we have more rights, therefore it is called freedom but, true freedom is no government but like it has been said before, no government doesn't work, you must have something to comfort the citizens so they know this and that will not happen, the same as religion has done over and over and over and the life on this planet since we have been in this existence in the universe.



Chapter Nine:Renewing A New Yet Old Argument


To really understand the entire subject at hand, we must refer to the beginning of the entire whole. But, to do so is to just repeat what has been said before but, to repeat is to let the reader be reminded what the entire argument is about. To be honest, nothing I say is at most true fact for I have done limited research in some subjects such as the big bang theory. That subject is very limited and will be until I do much more research. But the book is about my opinion and my way to point out the way I think in such a way. Most will read and not agree but there will be a small amount to be inspired to think as such and grow more onto it. Now, to begin on my way, I will make a recount of seveal things to refresh your memory.
One thing I have said the most is "Think for yourself, question authority.' And with that said I will make a new account. It basically means to question authority to find the emanings for their actions. I had a convesation with a few people a couple of days ago about children and their parents. One was complaining about the parents forcing them to go to church, the other was saying that the parents wishes shoudd be honored and you should go because they brought you life as well because one of the Ten Commandments tell them to honor thy mother and father. But, of course, I begged the differ, I countered by saying that I know church doesn't hurt the child but, if you are forcing them to go, you're basically saying that this is the way of life you're going to live because that's the true way of life. The child can make his or her's own decisions in wat they want to be. So, do not force the child, show them thsi way of life and let them choose, not forcing them to live tnhis life. I learned the beliefs and the was of Christianity and I made the choice that I have no need for it and that it is rather pointless to be in a religion such as Christianity. Everyone looks for answers, no matter who it is, everyone searches for answers. Most turn to religions to comfort themselves in their view of reality which is more of a reality that denies everything else showing that they are quite narrow-minded. They're always quick to judge people who has different ideas or beliefs then their own. They instantly condemn them to Hell for their differentiality. So, it does show that alot do not follow their own beliefs. Their god shows them not to judge and yet they do so. Because I choose not to be in their reality doesn't mean I'm going to yoru fairy-tale Hell. It is your choice to be who you want instead of being a hypocrite. They judgeme for the way I live. But, it has been proven that sexuality is genetically chosen before the age of six which shows that they do not choose to be homosexual, they were born that way. And because they were born in such a away, they cannot change . Science has proven so many Christian beliefs wrong but, Christians usually prefer to ignore science and continue on their narrow-minded way. "Think for yourself, question authority."


Chapter 10:Inner Peace Compared to Whole Peace


Now, to be be somewhat on the calm side, I will send more of a peace ten showing hostility toward everything. Because there can be times one must see the peaceful side of life instead of being angry at everything. It's a moment of darkness but yet, filled with a brand new light of ideas and truth. To see that there is a better way to life than the way through anger. But to even notice a peaceful away you have to be able to want tof ind it rather then it coming to you. See, people don't seem to understand the concept of finding peace, they would rather wait for it to come to them. Which either shows laziness or the will not to find it. Not many people search for such a peace if life but, it cannot go without saying that alot have. True peace is found in the individual not in just one whole. To say a whole is to truly say we woulc all be connected which some think can happen. And if it can be quoted, I will repeat the lyrics to a song written by Maynard James Keenan of TOOL. "So crucify the ego before it's far too late to leave behind this place so negative, blind, and cynical. And we will come to find that we are all one mind capable of all that's imagined and all conceivable. So let the light touch you, let the words spill through, and let them pass right through, bringing out our hope and reason. Before we pine away." Now, to understand that you have to look a bit deeper than the suface,as stated earlier in this book. To crucify the ego I would guess means to leave everything you have done or been behind and you can leave behind the all the depressing ways of the world. Then the rest would seem to show that if we can all come to find one peace in all our souls and maybe that peace can connect us together to bring us to become one mind capable of basically everything. And that we should do it before we die. See, that is what I basically seem to see. It would be possible if we could seem to connect all in one. It would mean we have found a true God which would say that we all connected are God. Every belief has come kind of view of Human to God connection in a whole. That is what it could mean, it is just one interpreation by a fan. But, comparing inner peace to whole peace is much too hard to do. To compare you have to really see the goods and the bads of each. Inner peace allows the individual to experience the rest at soul. It would be in some way an apathetic way of life. Whole peace is more to say if all are one proves US to be God. I would choose inner peace because inner peace is the easiest peace to achieve in life. Worldly peace, whole peace, both are extremely too hard to achieve and not many seem to be willing to understand the entire meaning to both so, I would come to my conclusion that inner peace is the best to have. To have some sense of peace is great to experience. To know that you are a whole with yourself, maybe not with others but with yourself. And it would seem to me that best way to even achieve it at all.


Chapter 11:Truth of Love:Romeo and Mercutio Combined.

I usually write nothing about the feeling of love but, now I have a reason to do so. But, at this moment I feel somewhat like Romeo Montague (if you don't know who that is, learn how to read Shakespeare.) People over and over have continualy announced that they hate the whole idea of love which means they don't understand it or they're too weak to do so. So, to those who hate love, I have no remedy for your illness. But, now back to me. I'm in the way right now to think I am in love, which it has beena while since the last time, but I do not know if it's a sympathetic love, a childish crush, or true love. So, I'm not clear on what it is and I think that maybe it will take some time to even study mind and her's heart. But, I'm not that great in reading hearts, I'm more of a psychologist than a reader of the heart. Think me crazy to be in love, at any rate, I do love. For me it is too hard to show such emotions in life and I fail to see. Many know why I cannot, yet I cannot see it myself. I told that I am incapable of showing my true love to anyone so I am totally depressed due to the overwhelming build up of this one reason. Yet, you should understand much more than I since most of you who read this hav been love or in a state thereof. I wish someone could help but, i came to the realizations that no one can because alot of people tell me what I have already done or tried. I have came up with so many things to help me that everyone else's ideas have no use for me. Alas! but as pain comes from Love yet so much greatness. Love can be compared to as sweet sorry or bitter sweet. Ah, how great those words can truly be compared to Love and yet, do we all not need it in some form or another? A chapter dedicated to Love, a chapter dedicated for my crying sorrow. Alot know the way i feel and much will agree. Tears are the only way to express the build up of sorry in my heart and they always will for my heart has and always has had a missing piece torn away from it by so many people who have done me wrong. And because of them, I suffer inlove forever and I have no true remedy for it.
I've been reading Romeo and Juliet lately and I've come to realize that I am a mixture of Mercutio (Romeo's best friend) and Romeo. I have alot of sorry in love, such as Romeo, but I have never known true love at first site and as well I'm not constantly wanting to be in love. From Mercutio, I'm every characteristic he has. So, basically, I can love but I have trouble expressing that feeling, as said before, and because of that I just do not trust myself in love. Alot of people either love to be in love, love love but has trouble in finding anybody true, or they basically hate love in whole. I cannot really say what is best but the entire love thing frightens me. It scares me to be in love because it's just not something I thought would come to me. But, I don't think many people expect it. Some, most likely,d o think love will become their's. Another problem with me in love is because I become to shy to express and to act in such a way. You could ask all the people that have loved me and I've gone out with that this is true. Everyone tells me that there's no reason to be shy. To beg the differ, there is alot to be shy of. To even speak of it makes my heart beat with nervousness and my cheeks blush with embarrassment. And it all eneds up causing me to become sorrowful and depressed with the reaction of anger. So, to all that witness such anger, please excuse me for now you truly know my reason of doing so. Yet, if you don't understand then you know nothing of love. And due to that, you have no say. But alas! how sorry I am for the trouble I cause, though, maybe stupidly done, I admit, if no one understands, they cannot just tell me to stop. For it is too hard for me to control my emotions. So, if you refuse to listen and have no understandment, then I repeat, you know nothing of love and you are no use to me. And throughout much of my young life I have searched for true love and always come up short. As well, I have had no help in such matters of love. Only thing that comforts me in most of these times are tears along with the will to push on. So, to finish this chapter, I say, love when love comes around to your soul. But choose wisely for maybe that love isn't the love you truly want. Remember that you control your life, you love but be wise with who you do love. Trust your heart, learn to love.



Chapter 12: Another Love Show



Notice in Chapter 11 that I was quite the depressing one and at the same time, in love. But, to show how it has come to play a role in my current moderate mood, I must recall the order taken to do so. The problem is my incabability to express love, not that I cannot love. Now, I have a problem with shyness which gives me such problems. Yet, I still feel the need to express it to my readers the clear and present danger that has been shown over and over through alot of diiferent types of writing, that love is a very hurtful thing if its taken wrongly. Alot of people consider sex to be a symbol of love, but it is only a symbol of love to lovers. Now, I do understand that it is a giant step in a relationship but there is much more in a relationship then sleeping together, understand that. There has to be a sense of honesty, compassion, trust, and intamacy between the couple. Without all of that, you cannot really have a relationshio or, at that, a very good relationship. The thing is, as it has been said before, lovers often lie and live in a dream and not in a reality to the way things are because they are too busy in their bliss. Yet, you do acheive ignorance to everything except the one eprson you love so dear because that is the only thing that comforts your soul to peace. Love is good, but it often ends in tragedy and total disintergration of the communication between supposed lovers. For everything that I have said, I still love hopelessly, in that sense meaning, I have a love with no hope of truly loving. But, I'm waiting for someone to come around and change that, for now i keep waiting for something that might never come. Yet, I still hope for it, in a sense, everything is possible, because if love does com my way and it's true, I'm sure there can be no impossibilities. To love is to be happy, but to end all love ends the life as we know it. If love never flies around me, I am sure the end is near yet, it will only be my end and for all who has loved and still do, I wish the best for you. For thoses who have loved and lost, you are my new family and I sitll have hope for us. Some say it is better than to love and lost than to have never loved at all. To me, that phrase is truth. To be loved is to love in a sweet moment and to know how it feels is the greatest thing ever than never loving at all and living in a bitter existence. I'm sure you understand where I'm coming from with that entire line. And I am positive you feel the same as I do. To know love is to know how it feels to fly, to never know it, all you feel is a weight holding you down dragging you along the lines of hate and anger as I have often been. I just hope this will change my attitude some, hopefully, I can show all how I truly am.


Chapter 13: Part one- Governmetan Part Two- Religion



To move on with a new subject, since I have dwelled on love far too long, I will make a count in government and religion. Government has been around for quite a long, long time. Everyone has their own idea of government, such as: Rebpublics, Monarcies, Communism, Fascism, Democracy, and Anarchy. I will start in order. A republic is basically the old form of Democracy which gives you the reason why alot of governmental buildings in America represent Roman and Greek architecture. Repbulics worked very well in Roman times yet, it did lead to people like Nero. But, it worked and that's why it lasted for quite awhile. Elections took place for their leaders or senators to put them in their government and they worked to keep their way of life. But, as time went on, it basically just started to fall into a monarchy type of thing and destroyed itself.
Now, Monarchies, as well, were equally as good, maybe better. But the problem was that you have a guy, who wanted all the power, who thought he was better than his own people and continues to get money from his people basically by robbing them with taxes. I'm not going to dwell on Monarchies for long and if you want to know more, Read The Prince by Niccolo Machavelli. But now, to get back on the subject, Monarchies had flaws, as does every government, and oppressed the people most of the time and didn't care. Cruelty isn't the way you should always control people, but it needs to be used to control them to show them that you aren't weak but the Princes and Kings and Queens did. So, monachies disappeared as they began to see Revolution and Rebellions.
Communism and Fascism basically belongs together except for one thing, Communism is extremely liberal and Fascism is extremely old fashion meaning they wanted things to be the same. Yet, they basically did the same thing. No one really were told the truth unless they were going to be killed. So, it is simply just governments of death.
Democracy nowadays is the only type of government that will stand for awhile. It has many advantages that the other governments upabove don't but, the people elect weak leaders some time because they are afraid of violence and war. The current president is one who will not lie down to war and obey people's opinions. We all hate government and war but, what President Bush is doing is neccessary. We get attacked, we must not show fear of going to war like these pacifists around the world. They have no truth to their way. They contradict themselves constantly and they use violence as well. My protests then is: No more lying down, we must stop being frightened.
Around the world, there are tiny groups of people called Anarchists. Yet, they know nothing about government. Yes, all governments have a sense of oppression to their people. Yet, you call me blind for saying we need government? My friend, I know about government much more than you. You're the one who wants to destroy the world by throwing governments away! Anarchy does not work. I tolerate the government because there needs to be some order and control. Yet, that goes against everything I think yet, I hae said before I tolerate government. I'd rather have government than total destruction. People cannot control themselves to act nicely, we need government. And you know, I would go for anarchy if it worked but, it doesn't. So I'll stick with government. -----End of part one

PART II.............

The orgin of government comes from the world wide practice, religion. Religion, as well, has been around for a very, very long time. The basic idea of government comes from the religions and the regulations and order religion gives. Religion to me is much worse than government basically because it's raather pointless except for the fact it created government. I do not consider any religion be true or false. But, I do consider all religions strict on people's lives, changing truth to a false, indenial, reality. To show you there is something after life, there comes a creation of "God" and if you follow hi way you'll be alive forever. Everyone has their ideas of the afterlifee. Yet, I couldn't care less about people's religious ideas. For me, Christianity is the most annoying religion in the world due to the people who are in it and all the lies in the world of Christianity. They're narrow-minded and indenial imbeciles. It's a brain washing religion. Their god is a hypocritical liar. Steals their mindsa dn lives and they know NOTHING!! They have a idea of reality. But Christianity isn't the only religion I hate. Truth is, all religions are what I hate. If there is something I hate, it's religion. Religion is the super control power, regulating and ordering ideas. But, I will come to say that, if I need a belief, it would be that all gods and goddesses are one being. Only reasonabile belief. But, someone called me ignorant stupid for saying such a thing. Which is wrong because all religions are connected. For the entire thing, All in one being would be true. A all loving, all peaceful, and all understanding being would be my God. Because Christianity says God loves all yet judges them to Hell the place he made to make people suffer. Christian God is false to me and will never make me lay down and be a martyr to his law.




Chapter 14: Change, Drama, and Comedy




By constantly reviewing the area aroundyou, you will come to know that things most definately change and at the same time, you find new things that you never thought was there. That is being a scientist in a way. You review and come to find new things. That is probably the best way to become more knowledgible about the world around you. But, to even notice these things, you must work for years to come to know such things. The problem is when doing such things that everything is constantly changing. Nothing never really stays the same as you should well know. But, the saying is, change can be good. The next problem comes then, it's hard to always change, you can't expect people to change, and sometimes, change is bad. Alot of people hate change and that can be understood because people can change for the worst sometimes but sometimes for the better, and as well things do become complicated with changes. Yet, we need such changes to receive a sense of entertainment. Now, what I mean by entertainment is, we all need something to be interested with. The biggest interest for people is drama. All the people of this world love drama. That should be known by now. Drama seems to draw people in to hurt people and as well for amusement. Yet, it hurts the people involved, it keeps life more interesting rather than the constant boredom. We all need drama yet, at the same time, we all need the comic relief. To know exactly what I mean, if you haven't already, start reading William Shakespeare. His plays really shows this kind of thing. I'm going to use an example, Romeo and Juliet. The comic relief is Mercutio, Romeo's best friend, and the Nurse, who takes care of Juliet more of the time. Throughout the entire play, change and drama always happens. The comic releif also leads to the drama. So, Shakespeare is ver good at showing all of this. That's about the best way to show an example of it all. Alot of people hate Shakespeare, but, it's either because they don't understand him or, they are too into not becoming more knowledgible. Still, no one gives a better example then Shakespeare and his plays. So, to end this chapter, which is also very short,I will again, always look deeper into the subject, ideas, and theories. Without looking deeper, you will flal short of the point and the main idea of it all. But, it is so easy to not look deeper but it means you're missing opportunities. You have to fathom all that comes toward you and never just read the surface alone. We all need change, we all need drama, and we all need deeper insights to what is being said. Yet, sometimes nothing can be seen deeper into what it is.




Chapter 15: Current News


Well, the current news around the world, as you should well know, is the War on Iraq. Now, I usually don't talk about current events because I'm not a current even kind of guy. I usually look upon history, study it, and take a look at what I should talk about since there is no need for me to talk about current events for you already know about them. But, in this case, I need a new topic to talk about so I will resume with this chapter talking on these events.
Now, the War on Iraq I think is quite necessary. See, because we are attacking Iraq, we do show several things. First, that we're not scared of going to war with people who seem to hate freedom. They do seem to show their resistence against freedom but no only that, our religious beliefs which makes NO sense because no one is right in their beliefs. The problem with religion is because of that. Everyone thinks they're right and everyone else is wrong. Hardly any religious people have an open mind about such issues because they're too busy worrying about pleasing their God rather then living their lives and being a bit more open-mindedness and peaceful. Secondly, it is showing that you can't just think we're not due to our citizens, the president knows what is best. Free Iraq and try to see if you can calm down the Middle East and if we have the right person, convince them that no one is right in their religious beliefs so keep an open-mind and stop trying to be so stupid by attacking us because you hate us for apparently NO reason except for our religious beliefs or our morals. The entire idea of thinking so is absurd because it is quite odd to dislike people for what they are and what they want when we really don't you but you give us reason to do so, or rather, some of us. But, because the citizens of America in some parts are Pacifist, it does show our weak side because one, being pacfist can get your killed because if you are unwilling to proetect yourself then you're basically saying you don't care about living and that you might as well give up due to the fact that is rather pointless to fight. Well, some arguments are pointless to fight. But, please come to the understanding the sometimes war causes good things to happen but people have to give the ultimate sacrafice for what they believe in. Civil War, if we didn't go to war then, we would still be split a apart and slavery could still be here. Why risk the chance? Rage war and get it over with then rather wait later and then do it. It set free a race of people and let them become free after several years. Then, World War II, why hate that war? People died for us, for freedom, and they helped save the Jews from Hitler. Why let someone like Hitler just continue that massive muder spree and never lift a finger to help? Are you that stupid to just ignore people being killed? As I said, being a Pacifist can get you killed if you don't keep a sense of knowing when it is time to forget all of that. So, I do really get the entire idea, to be honest, I usually am a pacifist toward other people. I just don't care for fights, I don't care wanting to be in them. But, if I need to, I will fight. Now, this war is setting alot of opressed people free if we can pull it out soon and if we don't do something fast? what then would happen? It would just continue on and on and no one would care. We are taking care of the problem now because this is what we need to do. Instead of lying down for them, we're going to stand up and say "Hey, we won't take this from you" and then fight back. It's just that the entire idea of lying down for people sometimes gets me rather tired of being so stupid and never helping myself. So I must fight for myself because no one else will except for maybe a few friends. So, rather like it or not, there are times you must fight, but peace is the best way to live. To be more connected than ever rather then always hostile.



Chapter 16: New Life

There is a such thing called new life. Not babies being born yet, that is life that is new but, for someone who is older and has a life. See, to start a new life you must really search deeper into what is it that you call your life as you see right now. Searth deeply within to find a glimmer of new awakenings and work on trying to find those out. But, the problem is that it takes a long time to find this new life in the life we live today due to the distractions and the consuming desire to follow those distractions away from the life we live now. People don't realize that life can be better and can become newer with time and patience. Patience is something that can cure all things in life as we pass day after day with things that tear us up deep inside or, just mere sicknesses that cut us down sometime from escaping pains. See, alot of people do not like pain but, I've come to realize that pain is the sign to show us that we are alive on this planet letting us know that we can do things rather then thinking we aren't real or we're dead and just giving up instantly due to that overwhelming desire to think so. Though, there some who think life is but a mere game. For me, it isn't a game in the world we live in yet, the entire view of living is from the eye which perceives it is a game. Take into considering that life isn't a game but, living life holds billions of games within itself and everyone has one game to go through. There are struggles, pains and there is happiness, there is love, hate, and mutual feeligns. It isn't that life is game it's that, as humans, we all play games with each other and by ourselves tyring to feel each hole that is empty and whenever they run out we must start over and do it again. I mean, there isn't much to life but, living and celebrating it to it's fullest and being happy and wanting to live such ways. The problem is that alot of us can't see and alot of us won't succeed due to the fact that we're lazy or, just not willing to start on our own and stop letting people control us and living our lives for us by controlling us. We are not alive if we are controlled for, the one who is controlling us owns us and has our lives in their hands and therefore, we are not living. They're the ones living life but, at our expense they do live life. And that is a simple fact. If we are controlled in a life we are alive but, not alive for ourselves, we're alive for them. We have to learn to live on our own rules, our own ways, and our own lives rather then having people live them for us. We must regroup, we must live, we must follow our own lives and find a new way of life. That is the new life, the new way to live is the new life and with that new way...We all find a way to reconnect and become one in some kind of way knowing that the world is free from governments and religions which old us down because of their regulations, rules, and orders.



Chapter 17: Follow or, else. Legend or, memory

Stories have been built around thousands of legends and ideas that have been rolled up into one giant book to make those who read such material instantly fall in love with such stories which gather their imaginations into new fancies of life that make them think differently then the way they used to. By doing so they're no longer thinking for themselves. They are being controlled by stories that are just there to rule their ideas and form ideas into beliefs. It has been said that beliefs are dangerous. That they stop the mind from functioning (thinking). Well, I think such things are true. That the mind stops thinking for itself and completely stops functioning on it's own letting something else take control of what is there and changing the entire process of thinking into something totally different than what is there making people forget HOW to think for themselves. They submit to things that can't even be seen and really proven and they instantly fall into it's grasps and let it choke their brains into such non-functioning ways of life. Life is life and people can live it in anyway they wish to do so. Some choose to be controlled by beliefs and regulations which hold them down from living life and letting them follow this certain order because it's the "right" way to do things or, they choose to think for themselves and follow their own way of life because it is their life and they have a right to live what is theirs rather, then being told what to do and how to do things. Yet, some things do need orders so people can do some things and we all know that. I do get carried away with such things and confuse myself with what I'm saying. But, the basic idea of it all is one certain thought that several, several people know and say...Think For Yourself, Question Authority. It's a very simple thing yet, it can be turned into more than just five simple words. You can think for yourself on several different levels. The problem is too many people get confused on the entire idea of thinking for yourself. Thinking for yourself means not letting other people tell you what to think or, tell you what's right or, wrong or, tell how to live your life. You have to stand up for your right to LIVE rather than being controlled by other things and having your thought process destroyed and turned into a robotic order. Life is not to be lived by taking orders from people who don't live your lives. Life is to be lived free and happily from things that will hold you down from evolving or, growing as a person and letting you do things you wish to do. Alot of people can't understand such ideas or, understand how to do it perfectly. But there is no perfect way really. Nothing is perfect. Everything as flaws within it if it can be seen through is there rather than just read through the surfaces. People can't see the possibilities that are there...but, they're there and we must know there are infinite possibilities. There isn't just one path, there isn't just one game, there is not just ONE possibility in life...there are infinite numbers. People choose different ones as in nature they should. Life is a dramatic game...we all have role but, in the end everyone loses. But, the things that are done will remain a legend of time but, after long they will be forgotten. The only things that can be for sure are words. They remain where they are written on typed...They are never forgotten...they are either life or death...and they can touch the soul. Words are power for humans. Those who can use them well will come to find that it can have alot of good things. But those who can use them limitless, they will come to find that you grow as a writer as your life grows and you evolve from level to level of life. Words are the things that can last forever. It is only up to the person if they wish to read, listen, and remember the words that will make them a legend.



Chapter 18: Must be a part of me


Lately I've been wondering in the entire moment that people think they're really a part of me. Though, through what I've said in conciousness and mind they are so, they must be. But, they really don't come to grasp what I mean. When I say you're a part of me by mind and conciousness I don't mean you know what I'm thinking or, how I feel, I'm merely saying that you are just one of me. You are another reflection of this one conciousness we leave in which experiences itself subjectively. Yet, I still continue to feel that people think they can read out my feelings and thoughts instantly because they think they do know how I feel. Some yes but, no one can really tell me that I know what you're problem is or, how you can solve it or, how they know. It isn't much of the entire thing that seems to bother me but, just how they seem to patronize me when they try to do such things. They have no clue what is going through my mind. They do not know what I'm thinking or how I'm feeling...ESPECIALLY when I'm talking to them over the internet. Continuously I've met people who try to help and act as if they know exactly how I'm feeling and what I'm going through yet there are so many differences in the entire whole that is there. People overlook the fact that we may be one conciousness but you do not know what I'm thinking or feeling or what I'm going through. But, if there is a way it is through countenance and words. But that is impossible over the internet unless you have a microphone and a web cam to do so, which I don't have, and when people tell me that I have this and that when they are younger than me then what they are doing is trying to degrade my brain into something that they think it is when it is much more complexed then what they think. In the entire community of these bleeding imbeciles who think they are really that able to know what I am thinking and feeling I can only say that there is one that knows. Still in this pathetic usage of people of the internet that I enslave myself with goes around thinking they know every single little detail of a person until they finally come to the reality of what is there knowing that there is no such thing as truth nor reality that all this is merely an image within another conciousness and that our death is just a dream of drama for this conciousness we are in. No one knows what this can or cannot be. We all have ideas of what it is and how we can live it but none of us can say what it is or how we all should leave it. There is no certain path nor meaning in this life we all think we are in. But, there are infinite numbers of ideas and paths and meanings to this so called life. We will come to find one day that we are all one mind which is capable of all. We will come to find that we can become one within this conciousness of life and learn to co-exist without feeling this overwhelming anger that builds up easily and brings with it depression. It is within the boundries of our eyes yet we cannot see until we all can gain whole peace and evolve into the next level............................"Today I've been on acid and I realize that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration. That we are all one conciousness experiencing itself subjectively. There's no such thing as death why should fear only a dream within the imagination of ourselves. Here's Tom with the Weather"--Bill Hicks





Chapter 19: The Bible Code


I recently began looking on the internet about the Bible Code written by Michael Drosnin. Well, I know that it isn't the ONLY book written about The Bible Code but, it is the most popular out there...therefore I will state what I've read or, basically explain what I think about the entire issue at hand.
The Bible Code is a book about a code found with in the Bible by using a mathematical pattern with the words to find out the hidden code within it which can actually show things that were going to happen. Therefore, it was showing that history was actually prewritten before it actually happen. There has been things within the Bible Code that shows that it stated the things that would come after the Bible was written. Michael Drosnin recollected one of his accounts. At one time, he knews a Prime Minsiter and as he was studying the Bible Code he found out that his friend, the Prime Minister, would be assasinated. He then wrote a letter to the Prime Minister telling him of what he found. I believe he noted that maybe it isn't true but, I wanted to warn you anyway about it anyway. But, it so happen that the Prime Minister was assasinated on the date that the Bible Code said. And they ended up finding out the person's name which was right above where it said he was going to be assassinated... And yes, I believe it is a strange account but, it does kind of make me think...It happened and he knew it and it was found out within the Bible Code. There have been people trying to actually prove it wrong and end up proving it right. And that is the totally unique thing about it all. Is that there have several people who have gone over and over with different methods and end up proving is all to be true. Yet, alot fo people still refuse. And, who have read a bit about Michael Drosnin knows that he is actually atheist but does think a "higher intelligence" wrote it. He has, of course, been criticized by the Christians who have read it and clearly stated that since there is this history which has been prewritten within it that is must be truly God who wrote the Bible. But, Michael also said since God was able to change history why would he make it prewritten within the Bible? And I also say what would be the point of prewritting history and making it a code within the Bible and yet you are able to change it? Why write prewrite it? Well, of course no one knows the answer. But, it does bring up several, several questions. Is there a God? Is The Bible Code? Was History prewritten? And etc. Once again, no one can answer these questions. Because no one can actually prove it. It just depends on the person's opinions to believe it or, not. In my case I haven't read the book so I can't say anything. I've only read the reviews about it and they frightened me quite a bit. To me, I am still confounded to my own ideas at this moment and I'll probably stick with them as well...But, the Bible Code is still frightening to me. Because if it is actually true then everything we've done and we thought are quite pointless since it was already prewritten and that this was going to happen no matter what. Which means nothing can be changed, nothing will be changed, and nothing can't be change since time within itself has been prewritten. And that is the part that scares me to think that all this is possibly worthless. It is just a matter of opinions and perception...